HAVE YOU EVER?

27.2.2001

 

 

Have you ever had the strange feeling you need someone so much that your life is dependent on them?

Have you ever had your heart shrunk in a huge fear of losing the one you love?

Have you ever felt you needed a warm touch and embrace and you knew you couldn’t have them?

Have you ever woken up many times at night longing for your darling sleeping next to you to wake up and take you into his arms?

Have you ever remained not feeling like eating because your inside was too nervous and unsure about everything?

Have you ever asked yourself how come the one lying next to you can sleep so deeply and restfully while you are needing them to be with you?

Have you ever felt the one you love is so close to you and still you cannot touch them?

Have you ever had the feeling that you are giving everything and it is not appreciated?

Have you ever felt you need acts and deeds more than just words?

Have you ever woken up by a bad dream crying and had the one loving you around to calm the echo of the bad experience down?

Have you ever known that you love more than you are loved and still didn’t want to break up?

Have you ever felt that the one who made you cry is the only one who can stop your tears?

Have you ever felt there is not enough time for you two in the whole world?

Have you ever had the feeling something was coming through your hands and you weren’t able to catch it?

Have you ever felt so sure about you two and in a while you saw how little can make you apart?

Have you ever had the feeling that you are right and couldn’t help it though you saw your darling is of the very opposite idea?

Have you ever felt unhappy about your love’s ideas you couldn’t understand and felt were wrong?

Have you ever been left behind by something you’d love to be able to do which your partner could and you couldn’t?

Have you ever thought of your partner not trying hard enough?

Have you ever had the feeling that your darling is just taking and taking for granted?

Have you ever doubted yourself being able to attract your partner physically?

Have you ever been unhappy thinking your darling will find someone better than you are in the immense world?

Have you ever been so unsure in your relationship that you needed to be reassured about the other’s love and you weren’t?

Have you ever known that the words and phrases you hear don’t mean the same what they used to?

Have you ever felt your world is turning around one tiny centre so important for you?

Have you ever considered yourself so dependent on the other one that you were unhappy that other things don’t mean anything to you?

Have you ever feared of the long lonely future you would have without the one you love by your side?

Have you ever thought of it being even worse knowing your love goes out with you just as a daily routine ?

Have you ever been upset that you know you love dearly and the one you love is not sure about their feelings?

 

 

A: ”If your answer to these questions is YES many times, you probably love by the whole heart.”

Z: ”But it hurts.”

A: ”You, do not worry. These things come with a true feeling you are giving.”

Z: ”But why is there so much pain, fear, tears and sadness then?”

A: ”I don’t know. That is probably the way it is when you open up to someone you love. Doing this you risk being hurt and if you invest your feelings truly, you might regret.”

Z: ”A fair point here you’ve maid.”

A: ”One told me the other day that the winner in love is always the one loving less – oh well.”

Z: ”That could be quite clever thing to do. Than you always have the little back door to escape being hurt.”

A: ”But is it being true to both in the relationship? Is it the true love then?”

Z: ”Probably not. But why do people apply this attitude? Are they just being careful having been hurt and disappointed in the past?”

A: ”It is an escape method, no doubts. They want to make sure not to be losers.”

Z: ”I see. And they don’t realise that they are already losing much when they don’t give themselves truly.”

A: ”Yes, they lose intimacy, the important thing in a relationship.”

Z: ”I’m just very afraid that one thing I was told once in my life might become the truth about love. I was told that the greatest love is also the greatest pain.”

A: ”But does it have to be this way? … ”